Day of birth: sketches

Albeit about a week ago. I was out in the field, with no internet access (plus the fact that my laptop had pretty much died...)

Well, better late than never they say. In place of social media (and internet), I've spend much of my time recently filling up my sketchbook with a lot of (nonsensical) sketches. Here's two of them off about my birthday:

Will be spamming more nonsense sketches in the future, heh.

Random rambling in a series of tweet: on depression, crossplaying, Facebook, life

A series of tweets that has evolved from one thing to another. I figured it was slightly interesting to warrant a post for it.

Life is neither beautiful nor ugly. But if you decided to take away your life, then that's the end of it.  I know you can't beat the sense into depressed people just like that. At the very least though, you could get them to talk to you.

Too many people venting out their depression online that they forget to actually talk to someone about it.


Actually I think a lot of people didn't really know of the hardship nonomy had to go through to reach where he is now. I mean when I was ignorant I thought that he had it easy having been born with the right stuff for crossplaying and everything.  But apparently he had thought of giving up a few times, and even on his level he still get discriminated by others.

It was after that that I thought, those who wanted to venture into crossplaying CAN actually work on their part to improve. Sure the early works might look terrible, sure you're gonna hear some not so nice words from others.  But if you're serious on improving (and not in because of anything other than a hobby) then you'll pull through.

I've seen some who have stuck through and improved over time. I'm certainly impressed with their dedication and the will to learn.  It'd be nice if the so-so ones would stick around to improve rather than doing a half hearted work (and then putting themselves down)


But hey, what I was rambling just now could easily be applied to any other hobby or work you could care to name.  Too many people not passionate enough in what they do, thinking they would make it big on their first go.

Instead of feeling like shit over your life, maybe it's time for you to stop and ask yourself, 'what do I really want to do with my life?'  No guarantee that you'll be extremely successful at that, but at least you know that it's what you really want to do.

I would thus like to encourage more people to plug off for a while off the 'net and travel more - get to know ourselves better.  Travelling - especially alone - is good in pushing you off your comfort zone, makes you see the world more, learn more about yourself.  Sitting there in front of Facebook and complaining about your life and hanging about people who aren't inspired won't do you much good.

So really, just try to stop complaining so much and start asking questions and thinking. Get yourself out of that comfort zone!  It's your life, man, and you have a choice on what you make it to be.

So why should you resolve it around Facebook?

Positive minded

We need more positive minded people.

Of course, when I said that I meant to seperate from the naive overly optimistic ones. There is a fine line between being a realist and a cynic, and those line might have overlapped without us being able to differentiate where it is.

The ones who have assessed reality for what it is, and act accordingly to the situation - making the best out of what they have - they are the ones who are most commendable. And as much as negativity is easily passed on to others, so are positivity (the non fake and naive ones). But unfortunately, the way I see it it's these negativities and fake optimism which are being spread around - and the second type I view it as further causing a positive feedback on the negativity: when they are told how they should act, how 'wrong' they are, on how they should follow the norm to happiness.

But what is happiness anyway? It's very subjective. And I'm thinking on how we're lacking on people who are positive minded, being drown out by the voices of negativities.

Maybe someday we will realize that we don't need to tell all the bad things that we feel just to make us feel better; to validate our own existence, as some might feel; without realizing we're running a vicious cycle where all this negativity keeps on getting bigger and bigger.

Maybe.

Nazrin gets lost! (Part 2)

Link to first part

...and after the 2.7 second staring contest, Nazrin gets ignored, as if she was nothing but a piece of rock

(...wait)

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Nazrin gets lost! (Part 1)

It was a fine day, and Shou was waiting for her Nazrin...

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Drifting apart (like a plate tectonic) is 2 years old! And Faults is an old forgetful bum!

Title says it all. And I was late for it by... over 2 weeks. Whoops.

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On being miserable

You know, with my recent attachment to Twitter, I find it hardly necessary to ramble around here. And then there's Fagbook. We know the drill...

Social networking is a big vacuum. It really is. Even more so if you're a self-professed procrastinator, ahah.

But man, I really miss blogging around here. Even if it's not much. I also missed reading all those blog posts. Now, let's try and get back into the groove shall we?


So, being miserable. It is a perhaps weird subject for me to comment on it, seeing that I'm more or less involved with it now and then. But in my moments of calmness, I then wondered why I spend that much time - and energy - on staying that way. It left me spent, really.

And it becomes such a way that the longer you stay in there, it becomes a feedback - you make the feeling grow.

But then, it's a normal part of being what we are. We have our days of high and low. But self depreciation goes a long way in making it no better. But, really, I don't know; this feature has been long ingrained in myself that I now have to make an extra effort NOT to think of myself in such a light. Because it's been eating me from inside, having storing it for so long. No kidding.

This is not by any means a new revelation. It's just at times I thought, 'why do I act in such ways when I could be the other way around?'. Not as radical as not being true to yourself, mind. It's just for my own betterment. Feel good and all that. Hey, being a pessimists doesn't necessarily mean being in suffering... does it?

Anyway, as I've said, everyone has their days. Don't let them get the better of you tho. Stay cool! Also, have a Patche~

I'll get back to blogging soon. Take it easy, blogosphere! 

Those backlogs...

I checked around my drafts here at blogger, and at present, there are twenty two posts being drafted, with the oldest one going back to October 2010.

Some of the posts are merely random rants and rambling which were written to kill time, while a portion of them I had no mood to publish them later (no matter how well thought they were) as I had ran out of the drive to go through the subjects.

Do you have as much backlogs, or do you delete them if they're sitting in there for too long? Or do you post them as they are? - i.e. you don't keep the ideas from being 'fermented' as it is

(yeah, I don't really have much to write about lately)

We are all monkeys, crazy for bananas

I have this one excellent - but admittedly, a little too much for my lazy mind to process in one go - book that I've been meaning to finish for a long time (since last year!): Robert Fisk's The Great War For Civilisation.

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Suddenly, it's only...

Near mid of December already. And that one event is just less than a week away. And I'm not properly ready for it yet. Got some stuff that I have to finalize.

This year I'm not coming to the event in civilian clothes. Yeap, it's what you think it is. Nervous + anxious + excited + I wonder what will happen on that day. Might let out more on that in post-event review. Maybe.

Slow progress on Master application. Planning to do so next week, see the head of department and stuff. Go meet lecturers. Have lunch with dudes I haven't seen for a while. Plan plan plan plan. The cogs and wheels in my head are turning. I'm writing haiku in my head to put things into perspective (wait, what)


...OK. Got a whole load of stuff in my backlog, but those might be pushed in times when I don't have anything to write. Or just sit there for god knows how long.

Why am I writing all this. I dunno. Just for the sake of writing I guess. Gehhhhhhh

Ah well, random pic, since I don't know what else to put as filler. Have at it:

In my book, 2nd after nonomy (??!!).

Writing will probably resume after christmas. Or after next weekend.

Take it easy guys~

A funky philosophical ride after a dose of shroom

You know, I had my dose of 'shroom just now, and right there, while reading Bill Bryson's A Short History of Nearly Everything (it's a mighty good book - I'd recommend everyone to read it), I began to ponder the philosophical question of human existence:

Mushroom - it's good for you!

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And 2 weeks later...

The previous series of events that took place in the past 2 week would have normally prompted a blog post or two... but well, laziness and procrastination are my middle names after all...

Yuuka! ♥

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Bare necessities

Paradoxically, staying at home lately have made me to stay away more from the internet - solitude at its best innit?

Another strange paradox is how I don't spend as much time on some other equally time-consuming past time (read: internet lurking and animu watching). And what did I make out of all this? It made me ponder on certain aspects in which some people simply can't live with - some more severe once they experience withdrawal from these, some not so.

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Can I play with madness?

Ever had that time where you woke up in the morning, and you just sit there at your bed for a couple of minutes, thinking... what have you done so far through this point of your life. Thinking... about what the distant future have in store with you. And then, you think some more about this over breakfast.

In fact, you might then engage yourself in yet another dreary routine of the day, pretending that it is not something that is worth pursuing your thought. But, without realizing it, that thought is still there, nagging at the back of your mind.

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like a plate tectonic is one years old!

And, just like my birthday post way back, I post this one later than the original date as well.



After inception from 16th June 2010 - starting as what originally is going to be quasi-academical plus everything else besides that - the blog slowly drifted apart through several topics, where it now settles down to cover mostly Touhou, anime, music, (mostly) random rants and everything else besides that. Guess nothing much have changed during that time huh?


So as this won't be a short 'I just made a random post lolololol' I'll explain where I came up with the current internet username (which is admittedly long, and doesn't make sense).

Anyone who know me well may (or may not) know that I'm a sucker for puns. So while I was figuring out what to put as my username for this blog, two things came into mind: 1) faults, which is one of the many geological structure, and 2) Fujiwara no Mokou (which was - and still - my favourite Touhou character at that time).

And as I tried to link those two, I thought, 'hey, those 'faults' are not as 'faulty' as their name suggests... now that's an idea...'

Mokou is not amused

Yeap, that was lame wasn't it?


Anyway, since I don't think I'll be posting anything for a while, I'll open the comment section for any questions/comment for the blogs/any random words that is related to this blog. Want me to write anything in particular for the next posts? Think there's something in the blog that needs modification? Or just wanted to ask any random question about me, but never have the chance?

Post them up down there in the comment section~

Shoot em up!

You know, a funny thing happened at the last convention that I went to: I was gonna take a picture of two cosplayers, when this one fine gentleman offered to take a picture of me with them (even without me showing the intent to).

What happened afterward was that he gave me some advices on how to properly use my camera - I would've said, "uhh, and you're telling me all this because...?", but since he suddenly offered to take a picture of me out of the blue, I guess I'll let it slide.

And because he had given me some free unwanted advices, I thought I'd do the same and offer some advices on how to optimize the usage of (compact) digital cameras (sorry, I ain't got any DSLRs ahaha). Because knowledge is half of the battle innit?

This is not so much as a tutorial. Treat it as a rambling of some sort. After all, don't everyone love stories?

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The place where I'll return to someday

How's everyone else? I see a lack of activity in the blogging sphere lately (i-it's not that I missed you guys or anything...)

...so yes, nothing much have been happening here back home. I've watched a couple episodes of this season's anime (with Nichijou and Deadman Wonderland being the ones I'm most up-to-date). I've watched the first episodes of X-men, planning to watch a couple of episodes from other anime as well: I'm keeping Ano Hana, C, Denpa Onna, and TWOGK 2 on my backlog. Also, I should get back to Kore wa Zombie and Fractale too - been leaving those 2 for a while now.

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Deadline and test is tomorrow, and I'm surfing the 'net~

It's the final week of the semester (before study and exam weeks), so I've been burdened with a lot of tests and assignments, which would hopefully be finished once the weekend arrives.

Apologies for not frequenting blogs much (which would include this one haha). I have this one large quasi-discussion/semi-rant/wholly nonsense post that I have been keeping in the backlog for a while, and I might just put it up once my hands aren't tied (I actually have one small test and an assignment due for tomorrow, so back to the chopping board I go...)

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Shitposting for a bit

I saw this on a fagbook, and I thought that it was just full of lul:

Check out the 3rd comment (and his other comments as well)

Honestly, the comments on the page made me to both laugh and facepalm at the same time. Anyone can talk big, but I wonder if they're as tough as they sound. So much for internet mobs eh...


I have just finished watching Toradora and Detroit Metal City, after putting them on the backlog for so long.

Toradora turns out quite good, better than what I expected. Looking at Taiga, and the apparently abundance of tsundere nowadays, I would certainly agree with one dude when he said that tsundere nowadays are starting to get pretty old.

As for DMC... I didn't know at first that Studio 4C was behind the series in the first place; I guess that would explain the slightly odd animation style. It's a pretty cool series - tho it might be a bit on the no-brainer side - but I think I prefer the movie version (the song sounds better there, methinks). Also, I think Krauser-san in the movie is more constrained, which can be a good or a bad thing, depending on your preference. I'd say the movie is certainly more toned down compared with the series.

Alright, time to get back to them backlogs. Sorry for not posting anything of significant content this time ahaha.

Here, have a ridiculously cute drawing of Krauser (Krauser-tan? lol)

Out for the weekend

A little IRL post:

I'll be gone for 3 days to attend my cousin's wedding in Brunei.

Me on the left

It will be the first time for me to board an airplane in a long time (the last time was during my trip to Indonesia, in 2008). I don't know what to expect out of the trip; chances are I'll be spending most of the time indoor (which is not a bad thing, really). I might or might not make a post on the trip, depending on whether anything exciting took place there or not.

Hopefully, everything will go well, and I'll be back here by Monday.

Yes that's right, you can practically find Touhou being paired up with almost anything

Take it easy guys~