Wednesday, May 22, 2013

3 years of eating danmaku

And as usual, I'll start this short musing by recalling how it all began by checking out a few albums off the awesome CROW'SCLAW, and coming across a well written entry on a blog for interested newbs at that time.



And it began with... two 



Sunday, May 19, 2013

Some further thoughts on crossplaying

A follow up to the post I've written way back, with a few more things to comment after some experience and observations.



Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Positive minded

We need more positive minded people.

Of course, when I said that I meant to seperate from the naive overly optimistic ones. There is a fine line between being a realist and a cynic, and those line might have overlapped without us being able to differentiate where it is.

The ones who have assessed reality for what it is, and act accordingly to the situation - making the best out of what they have - they are the ones who are most commendable. And as much as negativity is easily passed on to others, so are positivity (the non fake and naive ones). But unfortunately, the way I see it it's these negativities and fake optimism which are being spread around - and the second type I view it as further causing a positive feedback on the negativity: when they are told how they should act, how 'wrong' they are, on how they should follow the norm to happiness.

But what is happiness anyway? It's very subjective. And I'm thinking on how we're lacking on people who are positive minded, being drown out by the voices of negativities.

Maybe someday we will realize that we don't need to tell all the bad things that we feel just to make us feel better; to validate our own existence, as some might feel; without realizing we're running a vicious cycle where all this negativity keeps on getting bigger and bigger.

Maybe.


Friday, May 10, 2013

Moment of epiphany

Another update on my Master study level, eh? Because that's where I spend most of my time and effort right now (as it should be).


After a long period of procrastination and stalling, I've finally done the presentation seminar for my research progress this morning. And it was... very disappointing, to say it in better words.

But what was interesting was the whole event which leads up to this morning:

2 days prior, I've had a frank talk with my supervisor on how my research is progressing. A few points were given, and it was agreed that I need to go out and get something done: something tangible, something feasible to boost my confidence and morale to keep my research going. It did raise my morale there and then - but it just get better.

Yesterday morning, in my effort to rush and finish designing the slides for the presentation, I've encountered a long time college senior - one who you could say have pretty much instill my interest in pursuing a line in academia. We had a short talk on researching in general, on where do we go from here; on how we should rise up to the challenge and not stop halfway; on how we could use our position in contributing for the society - well, you know those kind of academician talks hahaha.

All this, coupled with sleep deprivation, with the final piece being some critical advices and suggestions from my supervisors - I could only say it was a moment of epiphany. After a long time of just slaving away with no real intention, I find the road to academia to be much well illuminated now.

The next thing to do, of course, is to take action and translate all the ideas into something workable. And I won't stop until I've achieved it. For this is the road not taken, and seeing as I've chosen to walk upon it, I'll see to it that I make it until the end.


Monday, May 6, 2013

Times Like These: Rambling from an ultra neutralist


By now, I'm sure most are aware of the general pessimism and depression surrounding the result of the 13th Malaysian General Election. The most obvious trend that's going right now is the blackening of most social website's profile - which I'm sure represent how the view the state of the country: dark; hopeless; dirty.

Now I won't deny it: as the result was slowly being announced, I was disappointed. With the long buildup of political awareness since the last general election - with the general public taking a greater interest in the political game here - I was looking forward to some sort of change in the political landscape here.

And I'm sure I'm not the only one with the same thought. So I could imagine the devastated hearts everywhere as the news was out.


Am I angry? I guess. Devastated? Sort of. I try to take an ultra neutral stance on all this, to not let myself get carried away with the ongoing mood and feelings of the people. To think.

But I'm even more devastated with the current pessimism running in response to what has been unfolding. There was talk on how they lost hope in Malaysia, on how dirty the political landscape here. And the worst part of it is that a lot seems to follow the current sentiment without really thinking it through. And perhaps most have conveniently forget how they show their worst sides during all this while that leads up to the election: hate for hate, ignorance for ignorance.

Now don't get me wrong: I'm not saying it's all squeaky clean here and all is right. But what I do want to say is how we're too quick to give up in the face of this adversary. Sure the current party has been leading the country for more than 50 years. Sure it speaks volume of the political situation here which favour them to hold on power for this long.

But you know what? I believe we're on a right way for change. Never before, I believe has the leading party been scrutinized this much. The amount of involvement from the people in the election this time seems very phenomenal. While it does not really translate into our desired result, we've surely changed on how the political landscape will look like in the near future.

Sure we're hungry for change, but maybe it's not this time. To throw it all away and say how you've given up in the country... that's very much like running three quarter of a marathon and you throw in the towel just because you can't see the finish line yet. To be angry without logic is pointless, but to totally lose hope is even worse.



So with all the general pessimism, cynicism and depression, I seriously hope that the light of reason and logic will shine through. Come on Malaysian, we're much stronger than we give ourselves some credit! It might take a while to get where we wanted, but I believe we're on the right track.

I just wish that we would be able to stand shoulder to shoulder, and to think on our own feet. Because the way I see it, if we're still naive and gullible to being pulled around by our nose; if we're easily caught up in mob mentality and emotional drive; if we lose hope, then the same thing will turn out no matter who's in charge.

We need more people to push on logic and reasons, instead of baseless rhetorics and emotional drive. Until then, I'll take an ultra neutralist stance on the situation that unfolds and do my part in getting the change to happen.

Not change in governance necessarily, but change in the people's mindset.

Godspeed.