Friday, October 26, 2012

Going lone wolf

"A lone wolf is a weak wolf, because wolves hunt in packs. A lone wolf would not survive in the wild for extended periods of time because they have evolved to exist in a social structure."

(From this very short blog post) 

Sounds just like good ol' human society huh?

With all the talk of 'no man's an island', we highly call forward for a structured society in our everyday life. Everywhere we go, there's that hierarchy to follow - the leader, the followers, the ones in between... and then there's the outlier, the outcast, the ones who doesn't take sides. The lone wolf.

There is a certainly a tradeoff here. In the first place, the way our society is structured would mean that these lone wolfs would certainly not last much long on their own - or even if they could, there is just that sense of under achievement, or maybe something of being marginalized.

But for some, this might not be a bad thing at all. Because when in a group, when we are subjected to collectivism instead of individualism, individuals can be swayed to to things which are, to put it bluntly, stupid. There's the whole thing about picking sides and being blind followers. The sheep mentality. The way we have to kowtow to some of those brainless leaders. The way we have to compromise, but at the same time it's only from our side. Maybe it has come to us doing whatever the hell as we please.

Me? I'm a lone wolf, but I come and go with people as I wish. Because in the greater scheme of things, we need each other to move on in our lives.

At the same time, we should remember how we're actually alone most of the time, and how we should start to get comfortable with the idea of being on our own.

To be alone, yet not alone, eh?

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Self improvement is masturbation

This is one of the line which I remember from the movie, but I haven't given it much thought until now.

What does it means when Tyler said that you're just wanking when you self improve? I always thought it was something being negatively implied... that the whole self improvement thing is just like, well, jerking off. That you're missing a much more bigger thing.

Or is it? Could it also be implied that the whole self improvement thing is something nonsense when you try to impress others? Think about it - how many of us actually fall into the trap of actually trying to improve ourselves for the sake of others? For trying to impress others?

Maybe that's where the whole 'self improvement is masturbation' idea came from. Because really, we know all it is about jacking off. OK, except the literal sense of the word means you're not really out to tell others about it... But, if you actually go for some telling, then I have no idea what you're thinking man. Always out to tell others, eh?


One of the best comment on this section of the movie is probably:

in the end of the movie, tyler durden dies. The dead is symbolic because tyler is the "ideal self" He died and the narrator survived because this means that you should kill your ideal self. The ideal perfect being you wish to be. You do that, more then by self-destruction, by self-acceptence! Accept yourself the way you are. Fuck perfection. Accept all the bad shit in you. None of it matters. All that matters is you and what you fucking are! A self-accepted man, not scared to show it!

Well. Maybe you could say self-destruction to self-improvement is like sex to masturbation.

I don't think self-improvement is necessarily a bad thing (if you take the similarity... ahem). But you have to look at the fact that we would usually destroy something in order to reach a bigger goal. The only question is, just for what purpose and to what extent we're willing to go for destruction? Is it out of anger? Dissent? Frustration? Are we trying to get the attention of others? Or are we trying to reach enlightenment?

Sometimes, maybe all we need to push forward is some good shakeup. And we ain't need to be impressing others whose perception truly doesn't matter.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

I miss You

It was the year 201X. Communication is dead. Humans have finally removed the need for interaction and moved for self-sustain. Humans are now hooked up to portable devices which cut them the need for face to face interaction. Days passed by for the humans, with them living a peaceful life. For without interactions, there is no need for getting hurt. No egos stoked, no hatred arisen - every man's an island.

But somewhat, there arises a faction that felt that this was not how things should be. That there is something missing...

One man, who shall be referred to just as You, belongs to this one group of lonely people. Except that lonely is not the right word. For no one is truly alone. Loneliness indicate the need for others - and You know how humans have no need for each others now. 'Each man's an island', he always repeated... Except that deep inside, he felt that the phrase was something else...

And then one day, it him hit. Literally.

Picking up the object that bloodied his head, was a rock. Still reeling from the pain of the impact, he turned the rock over, and he found the words 'I miss You' scribbled on it.

And then he knows what it means when it hurts to miss someone... Except that he wished this someone wouldn't be so literal. And such a stalker. Now he's scared... but that's a different story.

Elsewhere, hands begins to throw rocks out of the shadows... all with the same words on them...

End of story? Missing someone may brings you heartache, but it's not cool to maim someone with a rock. You can't get close to people without getting hurt. It's the parcel of the whole thing. Embrace it :)

...Yeah I have no idea why I wrote this. Doesn't really make a lot of sense heh.

Dug out from my continous spam of tweets at one late night yo~

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Sense of self control

I ain't even mad! 

Isn't it sad how easy we are to lose our self control over the tiny space that is between the keyboard, and the internet?

One day we're gonna look back and realize how stupid we were to act like jerks there, and how insensitive we are with our words. How we forget that others can be hurt by those little act of insensitivity.