Saturday, May 20, 2017

RIP Chris Cornell

I'm sure by now most are aware on the news of the passing of Chris Cornell last Wednesday - in what is reported as him taking his own life. While it might be tempting to debate on the exact nature of how he died (for example, whether drugs had an affect in his action prior to his death), I can't help but felt an eerie feeling when, the first thing I thought when I heard of his passing - this was before the report that it was suicide - was one particular interview on one of their song, Outshined:

"I don't know how everyone else feels...but I definitely go through periods of extreme self-confidence, feeling like I can do anything. Perhaps a fan will sense that, like in a performance, and the hero image creeps out. But then someone will say something, however insignificant, or I'll get something in my head and, all of a sudden, I'm plummeting in the opposite direction, I'm a piece of shit, and I really can't do anything about it. That's where "Outshined" comes from, and why I'll never consider myself a hero."
Chris Cornell 

Admittedly I haven't listened to Soundgarden in ages, nor have I listened to much of Cornell's other works... I did however remember being stuck in a dark period years ago - and it was from coming across the quote above that got me to rant on the subject of ego and... well, I'm not sure what the hell it was that I rambled here.

News like this never fail to shake me to my core - I go through occasional dark periods, and at times I do wonder if I was going to make it...? I'm not sure if that battle is going to be settled anytime soon, if ever, but I'm damn trying. 

Whatever the exact circumstances were, it's a shame that he was to be gone early. Rest in peace Chris Cornell, a lot of us are gonna miss you man. 

Saturday, April 1, 2017

Some drawings I did

I've been slow in drawing recently, so I thought I'd put up some pieces that I've been working on earlier this year, for some friends.

I have a couple of pieces that I was planning to finish for last month (March)... so I'd better work on them through this weekend, yeap.

Friday, March 17, 2017

So... old...

It was my birthday last wednesday. Nothing uneventful, though I did go through some old work from way back during high school, and marvelling at the long period of time until recently where I don't take drawing that seriously.

Anyway here's one from 2005-2006ish. Hard to say, since I didn't date my drawings back then:

Fun fact: The Pillows were formed the same year I was born 

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

I guess this is an update (+art dump)

I've been mulling over the purpose of writing out thoughts out here on the 'net: and it was not because of the fear that whatever I say will go into the void (though that used to be my fear, I admit...)

Sunday, December 18, 2016

Thoughts on Comic Fiesta 2016

This is in by no way a review of the event - far from it, as it's more a rambling and introspection.

It is precisely because I am in such a mood that I decided to write in here, after... wow, almost two years of silence here? Huh.

Just as my visit to Comic Fiesta yesterday, really, what I wanted is to dig deeper into myself. It is not merely to announce my presence, of being here for the sake of being here.

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

The struggle of drawing

Self potrait, back in my weaboo-er days

Last weekeend I was at Comic Fiesta, one where I was more into one of the two things which attract me to the event (ie comics/doujin arts, and cosplay), and you could see my thoughts in previous entry.

After having some discussion and chat with doujin artist through the event, I took a quick look at some of my old drawings, in an attempt to really get down to what is it that really pull me into drawing? What is it that makes me tick?

Comic Fiesta 2014

Post-CF post, summed up in comic form to stay true to the 'comic' part of the event hehe.

If I were to sum up Comic Fiesta in one word, reconciliation would be the word. Because I really love both aspect of cosplaying and doujin art, even if I might be making a bit of noise on the former haha. I honestly want to approach cosplaying like a 'proper' art, and would like for doujin comics to have wider appeal.

Probably this CF is the most personal for me, almost similar to 2010 (first trip) one, and I did spend more on the 'comic' part for this time. Feel a bit bad for neglecting the usual cosplay dudes and dudettes, but I'll let you know that I'm still very much into cosplaying as I am into drawing. Thank you to both the doujin artist, cosplayers, and everyone else who made the event worth it for my side. Cheers.

I manage to have some good discussion on one of the person that influenced me in drawing again, it feels great to show my stuff and get a bit of feedback and encouragement. 

Thanks Max, it's been great to be able to meet you again!