Sunday, July 24, 2011

I'm scared now (like a confused teenager, raging at the world/like a tired man, disconted at the world)

I don't know what the hell is going on with my life. I have been so uncertain, so confused, so... scared at what is going around right now (or rather, what is to come). And when I think about it, I'm too old to pass as a rebellious teen, nor am I too old to be a disgruntled man that seen all the worst that life could pass.

This is going to put off many people (hell, as if my usual ranting posts weren't enough - I am so sorry that this place have to step so low and become a bitching hole for me), but some things I just wanted to let it out. Besides, I need to clear my mind of all these negativity in preparation for next month.

So, urm, what's my face reaction at this point, I wonder. Like a man about to pour forth some sort of confession? An apathetic face? So frustrated that I wanted to cry?

Heavens know why I can't flip on the ignorant-is-bliss switch in my mind...

Incidentally, I got a Koishi for this random quiz on EX Stage Touhou characters. I thought it'd make a nice filler here, heh.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

'tis done!

So today marks the submission of my final year project.

Never mind the fact that I still have to wait for the feedback from the lecturer - this is freedom!


Saturday, July 9, 2011

This is not a revolution!

Today on the 9th of July, the city will be busy, as the clash of all four colours of Jalur Gemilang will take place - in the streets, houses, blocks, buildings... in the hearts and minds of the people...

And me? I'm siding myself with the white team. That's right, I'm just sitting here in my room, trying to finish the writeup to my project (which is due next week, by the way).

Crappy photoshop work

Monday, July 4, 2011

Just feelin' the monday blues

You know one thing I quite hate?

It's when people ignore you/don't give to hoots about you - when you say something to them, I mean.

Because it makes me think of two things:

1) Am I not making it clear that I except some sort of reaction/feedback from the other party?
2) The other person don't care about me at all.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Can I play with madness?

Ever had that time where you woke up in the morning, and you just sit there at your bed for a couple of minutes, thinking... what have you done so far through this point of your life. Thinking... about what the distant future have in store with you. And then, you think some more about this over breakfast.

In fact, you might then engage yourself in yet another dreary routine of the day, pretending that it is not something that is worth pursuing your thought. But, without realizing it, that thought is still there, nagging at the back of your mind.