Been a while since I've been around here isn't it?
I would like to say that I've been extremely busy all this while, but in all honesty, it wasn't until very recently that I've been preoccupied with work and (almost there!) preparation for Master level entry. So, what's it all about?
What kept me away was, that I was too caught up in some personal problems. Little things which I shouldn't have kept holding on to it stubbornly. In retrospect, those problems are related to changes - a topic that made me quite uncomfortable and apprehensive about. And as much as those changes take place to others, without a doubt I have changed as well. And what can you really do about it, right?
(Some might have seen the previous few posts that I've written in that period. It was the closest I felt to stop writing here, if you want to know the truth)
A mentor and protégé relationship
And then perhaps at a rather timely manner, my boss had a short chat on what my purpose (in working life, he meant) should be. Some lesson on hard truth of life, you could say.
Because I've had viewed the experience as more or less just a path to the next stage - and as such, I didn't really stop to admire the view. To take the simile further, I was a nomad, albeit one who just kept on drifting away towards and unclear destination .
Looking back, I'm now where I'm at because of expectations. If they didn't have such expectation in me, my supervisor would not be backing me up for my Master level application, and I would certainly not be working right now. Are they a burden? Perhaps, but another way to look at it is that it's a challenge. Yes, a challenge where you set your own pace.
To sum this short musing, and to quote my boss: 'What was in the past, is in the past. This is the real world. It'd be a shame if you don't learn some knowledge - all by your own initiative'.,
I ain't giving up. Not only for their expectations, but because at this point in life, there is no one to challenge me - no one but myself.